One of my greatest challenges as a “baby Catholic” is to have the courage to proclaim my faith. It isn’t easy for me as I feel somewhat like a hypocrite after so many years spent looking down on people who “needed” religion. I used to see it all as a sort of hocus-pocus brain washing by “those people”. Now, I often think of Jesus and feel pangs of guilt wash over me. To my former self, Jesus had been the nerdy kid we all laughed at. From American media, my college professors and almost everyone I was surrounded by on a daily basis, I ascertained cool people and Jesus didn’t really hang out. Now, of course I wonder, if I was “cool” and didn’t hang out with Jesus, who exactly was I hanging out with? Thankfully, just when I start to lose my courage and think of hiding away, I’m tossed a bone to sustain me. The following prayer was read at RCIA today right when I was feeling insecure about this blog and writing on my faith. It served to remind me that He needs me — a lot— so how can I hide away?
Prayer of St. Teresa of Avila
Christ has no body now on earth but yours;
No hands but yours: no feet but yours:
Yours are the eyes through which he is to look out —
Christ’s compassion to the world;
Yours are the feet with which He is to go about doing good.
Yours are the hands with which He is to bless us now.